Love it!An old Clan Line PCO Alec Bannerman told of how when B&C took control of the King Line one of their Catering Superintendents went down to show the PCO of one of them what paperwork was required of him under the new regime as well as the Victualling Book,came the Slop Chest account and the Inventory,the this the that and the other.When the ship returned after a five month trip he revisited the ship and asked where the books were`Where you left them at the end of my day bed`was the answer.
I think you are being hard on yourself. We all make mistakes in our career path. You had ambition and there is nothing wrong with that! Better than spending your life thinking 'what could have been'.I loved Clan Line and wish I`d behaved a little more responsibly,after 5 trips as an AP my last PCO Alan Moreton told the company I was Ok to go solo but because I`d misbehaved so badly,generally behaving like a ***** I was told I had to ship out again as an assistant.Sugar Line offerred me a solo job for less money than I was earning with Clan so I left,what a knob!